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MTV Roadies 6.0 Hell Down Under

2008-12-10T03:45:00.005+05:30

MTV Roadies 6 Ahmedabad Selected Roadies

Posted on November 29, 2008 by MTV Splitsvilla 2008

1. Umang, Ahmedabad - NOT SELECTED

2. Samrat Kaushal, Punjab & Mumbai - SELECTED - NOW A ROADIE

3. Devarshi Patel, Ahmedabad - SELECTED - NOW A ROADIE

4. Sunil, Ahmedabad - NOT SELECTED

5. Vicky Arora, Ahmedabad - SELECTED - NOW A ROADIE - ALREADY SAW ON MTV ROADIES 5.0 MUMBAI AUDITION

6. Bhanu Pratap, Ahmedabad - SELECTED - NOW A ROADIE

MTV Roadies 6 : Kolkata Audition : 6 December : Summary

Roadies will always be fun to watch; despite everything. You will still tune into the show; Saturdays @ 7 to see how quirky and weird people can be on how they are ripped to shreds by these two "predators". BUT, and thats a huge BUT (huger than Kim Kardashian's =p~) when IDIOTS and I mean "sabse crazy cheez: suicide attempt"-IDIOTS get through; you feel let down because:

a) You know already that XYZ person is gonna suck on the show.

b) You begin to doubt the show's intentions and the judges' intelligence. I mean, they are smart people who know the ways of the show, yes; but o cmon! 'I-am-rude-and-I-insult' is your character on the show; don't insult the viewer by making such bizarre decisions and that too on a weekly basis.

So, by now if it wasnn't obvious already; to summarise this week's episode: IT SUCKED!

Varisha:
Uninteresting, bland, forgettable because its only been two hours and I've forgotten everything about her interview except that she was incredibly dumb to the point of being legally retarded. Wonder if that'd make her turn gay.

Kiri:
The one guy who gave this week's show SOME credibility but I fear his journey will be reduced to nothing more than a fluff story. Resilient, he is, yes.

Priyanka: BORE!

Pragya:
I didn't really understand her PI at all. End story.

Tushar:
Was it jus' me or was everyone else also laughing hysterically when he broke down and started weeping like a little girl. I mean cmon DUDE! What the hell were you on! First, you portray that you are THE MAN; Domineering and in control of your woman's life and behaviour and then the next moment you bawl like a toddler, mumbling incoherent bakchodi. But enough about our mod, the guy on the show sucked too.

Paulami De:
Are you kidding me!? No, really! THAT bimbo! THAT loud, obnoxious FREAKSHOW! SERIOUSLY?! I still understood why you guys picked a Devarshi Patel; but HER?! You know you were right, she does belong on a reality show, only problem is that show is NOT ROADIES! Maybe one of the airheads on Splitsvilla 2 but definitely NOT ROADIES! Kya yaar dukhi kar diya!

Though her reactions after being a Roadie were very LOL. But still, nahi yaar; Roadies ko circus mat banao!

And after this week's episode I fear the worst. Please, no more of the fiasco that was Roadies 5.0

The irony here is while the two guys pretty much spelled it out that they werent looking do a repeat of last year; their judgments don't reflect this.

Bangalore auditions-next week and I think I saw DJ Rockky in there somewhere in the crowd. The sad thing is after this week's episode there might be some truth in the rumour that DJ has become a Roadie. Next week dekhte hai.

To Hell and Back

MTV Roadies 6 Kolkata Selected Roadies

Pragya : NOT SELECTED

Paulami De : SELECTED NOW A ROADIE

Varisha : SELECTED NOW A ROADIE

Tushar : NOT SELECTED

Kiri Tuming : SELECTED NOW A ROADIE

MTV Roadies 6 Varisha Orkut Profile & Link

relationship status: single

birthday: April 24

age: 20

languages i speak: English (US), Hindi

here for: friends

about me: well,i m sum1 whom no1 can understand easily..Yaa,but my frenz believe tat i m really a fun luving gal who z fond of eating n sleeping and Yaa,partying..i luv 2 knw different ppl and orkut z a lovely site 2 get into..but at the same time i m very choosy n so hav limited frenz..wel,i m quite candid n cant keep anything in my belly coz its really small n has no vacancy 4 stupid gossips..i m complete style freak n so luv 2 b stylish all the time..!!LOVE z a big NO-NO 4 me coz i jus believe in true friendship coz its the only relation whc GOD leaves on us 2 make n wen luv starts friendship ends,so BIG BOYCOTT 2 LUV..i m here 2 knw all u lovely ppl n b ur true fren 4ever....!!!!

children: no

ethnicity: asian

religion: Hindu

political view: not political

humor: friendly

fashion: alternative, smart, trendy

smoking: no

drinking: no

pets: i like pet(s)

living: with parents

passions: i m fond of eating n partying..

sports: i m not at all sporty but i try every sport wid my boring bro wel i luv wearing sporty shorts...

activities: i m active only in my dreamz..

books: "frankestein"..n only seventeen magazines...

music: soft n soothing music wen i m alone..or else rocking ones..........

tv shows: all the shows of disney n pogo..

movies: meaningful movies not the TP ones

cuisines: all mexican food stations like 'jalapenos'

city: KOLKATA

state: west bengal

country: India

education: High School

career interests: wel me intersted in fashion designing and mass comm.

ideal match: tall,rugged,rich,intellegent n damn hillarious hot guy

first thing you will notice about me: my hair

height: 165 centimeters

eye color: brown

hair color: dark brown

build: slim

body art: pierced ears

looks: beauty contest winner

best feature: hair

turn ons: candlelight, dancing, erotica, intelligence, long hair, wealth

turn offs: scooty guys

my idea of a perfect first date: a hot stud in a black car who takes me 2 a beautiful riverside spot..

from my past relationships i learned: don get serious wid luv jus hav fun..n after sumtime run..

five things I cant live without: food,money,phone,hot-shopping n music

in my bedroom you will find: all pinky n fishy stuffs..

VARISHA HAWELIA ORKUT PROFILE LINK

Da Gsense Codes: How to create a Google Adsense Account? - Google Adsense Secrets Revealed

2008-12-09T21:37:00.002+05:30

How to create a Google Adsense Account?

Da Gsense Codes: How to create a Google Adsense Account? - Google Adsense Secrets Revealed

To get help about all adsense queries.....

Rapidshare Tips & Tricks (rapidshare.de) | Megaupload Account

2008-12-09T17:43:00.001+05:30

This article has tips on how to beat Rapidshare time limit, get a free premium Rapidshare account password, search rapidshare and Download multiples files using Rapidshare grabber script. Feature tricks to resume broken downloads with Rapidshare download manager.

Free unlimited large file hosting services like rapidshare de, yousendit and megaupload let you share and transfer big files on the internet. If a file is too large to send as an email attachment, just upload it to any of these sites and email the link to the recipient.

You can upload large files be it music videos (dat, flv, wmv, avi, mpeg, 3gp), audio files, mp3 songs, games, software (iso, rar, zip), cell phone ring tones, ebooks (pdf, chm, hlp), photos, Microsoft Office documents, CAD drawings, PDF documents, bookmarks and even retail software installers (exe msi) files. Send files of any type and of any size to people who are on a network that doesn’t allow large e-mail files.

Quick File Sharing Hack: All these services allow only single files to be sent at a time. If you have more than one file to send, just zip them into an archive using Winzip or any other compression utility.

RapidShare
After your upload a file to rapid share de, you will get two links. The rapidshare file download-link, which you share with other, and a delete-link, which you keep for yourself. The delete-link, when clicked, will remove the file from rapidshare de servers. Just like Megaupload files, rapidshare will delete files that have not been accessed for 30 days or longer. Rapidshare premium account supports download managers and provide much faster downloads. Note that rapidshare happy hours service is no longer available. Progress bar to show how much is uploaded.

Megaupload
No registration is required. File Size Limit: 250 MB. Your uploaded files will be deleted only after it become unused for 30 days. So, if many of your friends download it, over and over again, the files will always be there. The Megaupload site allows only one download at a time from a IP address. The site blocks more attempts than that. Progress bar to show how much is uploaded

YouSendIt - Share really big files
Unlimited YouSendIt lets you send files up to 1GB. YouSendIt can send files securely (https) and scans files for viruses.When you send a file via the YouSendIt Web site, an e-mail goes to your recipient with a link to your file, which is stored securely on YouSendIt’s server. The file will stay there for seven days or until it is downloaded 25 times, whichever comes first. You only have to enter a To email address; you are not required to enter a From address. You can also enter an optional message. No registration is required. Recommended large file hosting service.

DropSend
DropSend is a online tool (with desktop component) that lets you e-mail large files upto 1 GB you wouldn’t normally be able to send via e-mail. It’s free to try and can be used via Mac or Win machines.

Bigupload
No signup is required.Bigupload lets you send files upto 2000MB. If nobody downloads your file for 30 days, it is automatically deleted. Progress bar to show how much is uploaded. Can be integrated with MySpace. 45 seconds wait for download. Easy to remember download page like bigupload.com/d=abc
bigupload.com

Latest Rapidshare Hack
Download RapidShare Link Grab Helper v1.0 - Use download manger to download your rapidshare files and as many files downloading as you want (one file for every proxy you choose).

Step 1. Paste your RapidShare link (hxxp://rapidshare.de/fil..ar.html)
Step2. Choose your proxy (one proxy for each file if you want multiple download) or leave blank (as set in your IE)
Step3. Click on Grab
Step4. Type the 3 RED letters in the blank space.
Step5. Copy the RapidShare Direct link and paste it into your Download manager ( FlashGet or IDM, or IDA…etc). Or you can wait for the counter at the bottom to get to zero and click on “ Send to FlashGet”.

YouSendit Hack with Zango
The regular YouSendIt service stores files for 7 days or 25 downloads. But if you install the Zango Search Assistant tool, YouSendIt service stores files for 14 days or 25,000 downloads, whichever comes first. Zango Search Assistant shows relevant ads by 180solutions.

Rapidshare Hacks

How to disable the rapidshare.de download counter in IE or Firefox

While waiting for download, type javascript:c(countdown = 0); in the browser addressbar to eliminate the rapidshare countdown (waiting) feature. If this trick doesn’t work, try the alternative below:

1. Click the Free button to initiate the download for rapidshare website
2. As the countdown timer begins, type the following URL in the location bar and press enter or click the Go button. The rapidshare direct download link should appear immediately.

The third option to byepass waiting time in Firefox is by using Greasmonkey extension and installing rapidshare.user.js script (rapidshare no wait). RapidLeecher is another PHP script for Rapidshare.de, Megaupload and MyTempDir services for immediate and simultaneous multiple downloads using proxy servers.

Byepass the Rapidshare data download limit

Rapidshare limits each user to a certain amount of downloading per day based on the users IP address. You can easily cheat rapidshare by showing a different IP address.

1. Clear your browser cookies.
2. Open the command prompt (Start - Run - cmd.exe)
3. Run the following simple commands:
ipconfig /flushdns
ipconfig /release
ipconfig /renew
4. Type exit to close the DOS window. Restart the rapidshare download job.

This trick may not work if your ISP has assigned you a static IP address. (BSNL assigns a dynamic IP)

If Rapidshare block your IP, change proxy
Rapidshare might block an IP from download for sometime. To byepass this restriction, change your IP. First obtain a IP and it’s port from publicproxyservers.com. Then use that IP and port in your browser Connection settings window. Click OK.

Download files from Rapidshare like a Premium user
Install the Flashgot extension to enable integration of Firefox with Flashget download manager. Go to a rapidshare download link once the timer is done right click on it and choose FlashGot Link
from the context menu. Flashget will launch the download window. Choose only 1 split file for the download to work. This works on RAPIDSHARE even without a premium account.

Megaupload Hacks

Search with Google for files on rapidshare or Megaupload servers
The uploaded filename is contained in the Rapidshare and megaupload URLs. This will help us find what is posted on rapidshare/megaupload for download.

To search for ebooks and documents in PDF format on Rapidshare:
pdf “rapidshare.de/files” site:rapidshare.de
To download movies and video files:
+inurl:avi|mpg|wmv site:rapidshare.de
To download mp3 files from rapidshare:
+inurl:wma|mp3 site:rapidshare.de
To download software, zipped files, programs from rapidshare:
+inurl:exe|rar|zip site:rapidshare.de

Replace rapidshare.de with megaupload.com to search for files available on MegaUpload.com servers.

Yousendit Hacks

Disable the Yousendit 25 downloads limit
When a file is uploaded to yousendit, it displays a link to your file when the upload process is complete. The link generally looks like the one below:

http://s8.yousend…83E2C899DB721

Append http://anonym.to/? to the above yousendit link, the new URL should now look like:

http://anonym.to/?http://s8.yousend…83E2C899DB721

Load the URL in your browser and download should begin. This trick will not byepass the seven day limit

Unlimited downloads from Yousendit

The YouSendIt link looks like the one below:
http://s12.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=46FK4…82KLDFS78D

See the letter “d” after “yousendit.com/” ? Change that letter “d” to an “e” and the link will never die. The d.aspx has the counter on. if it finds there has been more than 25 hits then it refers the user to expired.aspx otherwise it refers you to e.aspx. e.aspx has the download link and does not add any more hits. the link may stay for longer but will not eliminate the 7 day period.

YouSendit Download Manager
You can use most download managers when downloading files from YouSendIt. You can use YSIGet Download Manager. If the download stops before completion, you need to resume a stopped download - click on the original YouSendIt download link to re-open the browser window.

Rapidshare RapidLeech Script
Rapidleech script transfers files from rapidshare and megaupload via your fast servers connection speed and dumps the file on your server.
http://rapidleech.com/

Rapidshare Megaupload Download Manager
After you choose the download location of the files you’re about to download, you just have to insert the link of the file hosted in rapidshare.de servers, and click enter, and the program automatically starts to download the file, you just wait about 15 to 45 seconds for the download to start.

See the screenshot above to see the contents of All In One Rapidshare Hacks software. Also download Rapidshare Instant Downloader and Rapidshare Leecher v 3.0 PHP scripts.

RapidShare introduces Word CAPTCHA
You have requested the file Adobe-Acrobat.pdf (3820923 Bytes). This file has been downloaded 440 times already. IMPORTANT: Download-accelerators are only supported with a PREMIUM-Account! Only free-users: Please enter a three letter CAPTCHA here.

Download Rapidshare & Megaupload Files Searching Plugin for searching RapidShare and MegaUpload file servers from your Firefox or IE browsers.

Rapidshare introduces a free RapidShare folders service - Create your own interactive directories with any RapidShare-files you want. The biggest advantage is that your users can instantly see if all files are available for download or not. You may create as many folders as you want. Even sub-folders are possible. You can also protect your folders and sub-folders with a password. Of course you can edit your folders at anytime.

Free Rapidshare Premium Account
To login into the RapidShare - PREMIUM-Zone without using your credit card or PayPal, During certain periods, Rapidshare provides free premium account to normal users. The free premium rapidshare links are valid for 24 hours. The URL to try is rapidshare.de/cgi-bin/freeaccount.cgi It may be possible that all rapidshare free premium accounts are taken so try again later.

More Rapidshare hacks - Search for files on megaupload and rapidshare

Search Video on Megaupload: avi|mpg|mpeg|wmv|rmvb site:megaupload.com
Search Audio Music files on MegaUpload: mp3|ogg|wma site:megaupload.com
Search Software Warez ISO Programs on MegaUpload: zip|rar|exe site:megaupload.com
Search ebooks and magazine on megaupload: pdf|rar|zip|doc|lit site:megaupload.com

Search Video on rapidshare.de avi|mpg|mpeg|wmv|rmvb site:rapidshare.de
Search MP3 Music cds files on Rapidshare: mp3|ogg|wma site:rapidshare.de
Search full software programs on Rapidshare zip|rar|exe site:rapidshare.de
Search pdf files, documents, ebooks, magazines: pdf|doc|lit|rar|zip site:rapidshare.de

For megaupload and rapidshare searching, narrow down you search for what you want by putting your query at the first part.

Say if you want to search for da vinco code ebook use the query
da vinci code pdf|doc|lit|rar|zip site:rapidshare.de

Say if you want to search for madonna mp3 files and music videos use the query
madonna mp3|wmv site:rapidshare.de

What is the Difference Between Unix and Windows Web Hosting?

2008-12-08T17:12:00.001+05:30

So you're finally ready to publish your finished website and you're searching through the myriad of web hosting plans and providers. You may have noticed that most hosting companies use Linux or Unix operating systems on their web servers. Microsoft Windows is less commonly offered as a choice. So what's the difference?

Most people are familiar with Microsoft Windows having used it at home, work, or at school. It is very easy to use for novices and it doesn't require command-line knowledge. In Windows Home and advanced Server editions, you can simply point and click your way to a different folder using your mouse. Unix and Linux are open-source – meaning that the operating system is free and the source code is well documented and easily distributed. There are no major differences between Unix and Linux. Unix is much older and cannot run on x86-based personal computers (like the one you're using now). In contrast, Linux can run on both high-powered servers and x86-based computers.

Linux is available in many flavors, though most hosting companies use Red Hat Linux, or Mandrake Linux, which are proven workhorses able to handle hundreds of websites and millions of hits per day. FreeBSD and OpenBSD are versions of Unix which are also available. While ease-of-use is very important for a home or work computer, it is generally not a big issue when working with a web server. After all, you are doing most of your website design offline on your own computer. Unless you have very advanced programming or operating system-specific modules, you will not notice the difference between Windows and Unix servers.

Both Linux/Unix and Windows can handle high traffic websites and add-ons such as chat rooms, email and website statistics with ease. The biggest differences are price and software compatibility. Because Windows must be purchased and licenses renewed continuously, Windows hosting plans are usually more expensive than Unix-based plans. Also Unix-based plans often come with free email, databases (MySQL), statistic, and community programs. While Windows plans come with Microsoft software (MS SQL, for example) that must be purchased by the hosting company.

Both Linux and Windows platforms can run popular programming languages such as php, perl, or java. If your website uses active server pages, then it will be less risky hosting it on a Windows server. Well it still may function on a Unix server, there may be small glitches that are not immediately apparent. Similarly, if you are using with Microsoft SQL databases, these databases will be supported by most Windows plans. However, Linux or Unix plans often include MySQL which would require that your databases be converted to this format in order to function properly. If you are currently using any Microsoft programming (especially active server pages) or third-party applications (MS SQL 2000), you may want to play it safe and choose a Windows hosting plan.

From the average web designer's standpoint, there isn't much difference between hosting on Linux/Unix or Windows web servers. However, before signing up for a hosting plan, ensure that all facets of your site's design, programming, databases and the like will work with that plan. If you are unsure, ask the company's sales or technical staff before you commit.

Google bombing

2008-12-08T16:52:00.002+05:30

(GOO.gul bawm.ing) n. Setting up a large number of Web pages with links that point to a specific Web site so that the site will appear near the top of a Google search when users enter the link text.
—Google bomb v, n.

Example Citation:

Since Mathes planted that first Google Bomb, the practice has spread throughout the blogging community. Here are four types of Google Bombs whose fuses have already been lit:

1. Humor Bombs. Mathes' original Google Bomb remains the classic of this genre. It's pretty funny to see your friend come up in Google as the No. 1 talentless hackin the whole world. Successful humor bombs, like most Google Bombs, require search key words that don't get a lot of traffic.

2. Ego Bombs. Many bloggers want to be the top search result for their first name or full name. Free-lance writer David Gallagher posted this plea on his site: I've decided that I want to be the most famous David Gallagher on the Internet, and if you have a Web site, you can help. How? Link to this site like so: David Gallagher. As of March 22, he's ranked No. 3 in Google.

3. Money Bombs. So far, no one's paying bloggers to set off Google Bombs, but the practice is probably inevitable. Last month, Weblogger Brig Eaton floated the idea, saying that her father would be willing to pay to get his site Google Bombed into the No. 1search result for Santa Cruz real estate. A week and a few (free) links later, www.santacruzrealty.net had moved from the No. 189 Google result to No. 39. ...

4. Justice Bombs. Angry Webloggers can mete out vigilante justice by Google Bombing sites that violate the bloggers' standards for Internet ethics.
—John Hiler, "Google Time Bomb," Slate Magazine, March 25, 2002

First Use:

Here's how you can join in the first ever international google bombing:

1. Get a web site. If you already have a web site, you can skip this step. If not, be a cheap bastard and go Geocities, Angelfire, Pitas, whatever. I don't care. Everyone has something to say blah blah blah personal expression yadda yadda. Just remember the Google bombing.

2. Whenever you update your site, which should be approximately three to five times a week, be sure to include the following HTML at some point:

Andy "talentless hack" Pressman

3. Add your site to Google.

4. Wait for the magic to happen! Soon, whenever you type in talentless hack into google, you'll see Andy "talentless hack" Pressman smiling right back at you.
—Adam Mathes, "Filler Friday: Google bombing," Über: Better Than You, Daily, April 6, 2001

20 Tips for More Efficient Google Searches

2008-12-08T16:49:00.001+05:30

For millions of people Google is an indispensable search tool that they use every day, in all facets of their lives. From work or school, research, to looking up movies and celebrities to news and gossip, Google is the go-to search engine.

But instead of just typing in a phrase and wading through page after page of results, there are a number of ways to make your searches more efficient.

Some of these are obvious ones, that you probably know about. But others are lesser-known, and others are known but not often used. Use this guide to learn more about, or be reminded of, some of the best ways to get exactly what you're looking for, and quickly.

Either/or. Google normally searches for pages that contain all the words you type in the search box, but if you want pages that have one term or another (or both), use the OR operator -- or use the "|" symbol (pipe symbol) to save you a keystroke. [dumb | little | man]

Quotes. If you want to search for an exact phrase, use quotes. ["dumb little man"] will only find that exact phrase. [dumb "little man"] will find pages that contain the word dumb and the exact phrase "little man".

Not. If you don't want a term or phrase, use the "-" symbol. [-dumb little man] will return pages that contain "little" and "man" but that don't contain "dumb".

Similar terms. Use the "~" symbol to return similar terms. [~dumb little man -dumb] will get you pages that contain "funny little man" and "stupid little man" but not "dumb little man".

Wildcard. The "" symbol is a wildcard. This is useful if you're trying to find the lyrics to a song, but can't remember the exact lyrics. [can't me love lyrics] will return the Beatles song you're looking for. It's also useful for finding stuff only in certain domains, such as
educational information: ["dumb little man" research .edu].

Advanced search. If you can't remember any of these operators, you can always use Google's advanced search.

Definitions. Use the "define:" operator to get a quick definition. [define:dumb] will give you a whole host of definitions from different sources, with links.

Calculator. One of the handiest uses of Google, type in a quick calculation in the search box and get an answer. It's faster than calling up your computer's calculator in most cases. Use the +, -, , / symbols and parentheses to do a simple equation.

Numrange. This little-known feature searches for a range of numbers. For example, ["best books 2002..2007] will return lists of best books for each of the years from 2002 to 2007 (note the two periods between the two numbers).

Site-specific. Use the "site:" operator to search only within a certain website. [site:dumblittleman.com leo] will search for the term "leo" only within this blog.

Backlinks. The "link:" operator will find pages that link to a specific URL. You can use this not only for a main URL but even to a specific page. Not all links to an URL are listed, however.

Vertical search. Instead of searching for a term across all pages on the web, search within a specialized field. Google has a number of specific searches, allowing you to search within blogs, news, books, and much more:

Blog Search

Book Search

Scholar

Catalogs

Code Search

Directory

Finance

Images

Local/Maps

News

Patent Search

Product Search

Video

Movies. Use the "movie:" operator to search for a movie title along with either a zip code or U.S. city and state to get a list of movie theaters in the area and show times.

Music. The "music:" operator returns content related to music only.

Unit converter. Use Google for a quick conversion, from yards to meters for example, or different currency: [12 meters in yards]

Types of numbers: Google algorithms can recognize patterns in numbers you enter, so you can search for:

Telephone area codes

Vehicle ID number (US only)

Federal Communications Commission (FCC) equipment numbers (US only)

UPC codes

Federal Aviation Administration (FAA) airplane registration number (US only)

Patent numbers (US only)

Even stock quotes (using the stock symbol) or a weather forecast regarding the next five days

File types. If you just want to search for .PDF files, or Word documents, or Excel spreadsheets, for example, use the "filetype:" operator.

Location of term. By default, Google searches for your term throughout a web page. But if you just want it to search certain locations, you can use operators such as "inurl:", "intitle:", "intext:", and "inanchor:". Those search for a term only within the URL, the title,
the body text, and the anchor text (the text used to describe a link).

Cached pages. Looking for a version of a page the Google stores on its own servers? This can help with outdated or update pages. Use the "cached:" operator.

Answer to life, the universe, and everything. Search for that phrase, in lower case, and Google will give you the answer.

Some lines ....

2008-10-03T01:47:00.001+05:30

I Love My Past. I Love My Present. I'm Not Ashamed Of What I've Had, And I'm Not Sad Because I Have It No Longer!!

Life is neither a TEMPEST, nor a MIDSUMMER NIGHT’s DREAM.
It is the COMEDY OF ERRORS, to be lived AS YOU LIKE IT!

I am all alone...

2008-07-12T23:05:00.002+05:30

Nobody knows its empty
This smile that I wear,
The real one is left in the past
Because U have left me there...

Nobody knows I am crying
They won't even see my tears,
When they think I am laughing
I still wishing U were here...

Nobody knows it's painful
They think that I am strong,
They say it won't kill me
But I wonder if they were wrong...

Nobody knows I am praying
That U will change my mind,
They think that I had let U go
When U left me behind...

Nobody knows I miss U
They think I feel set free,
But I feel like I am bound with chains
Trapped in the mystery...

Nobody knows I need U
They say I can do it on my own,
But they don't know I am crying
When I am all alone...

Fighting with fate Helplessly....

2008-05-31T11:24:00.000+05:30

I tried fighting with my fate for almost 3 years in life
try going on each and every path I can but now it starts
seeming no matter whatever you do wherever you go
fate catches you....

But isn't sometimes it is frustrating that even living
your life we are on a path which is predecided long
before... We all at some point of time in our life have to
bend before this point of time controlled by fate.....
Sometimes I feel like being a puppet who works on
given instructions what the meaning of living a life as
human having the right of free will if we don't even
decide freely about the things in life...........

So confined within limits, within boundaries, living for
all the people around never living for self...A life which
is restrained in limitless limitations... Sounds annoying
and frustrating but still 6 billion people living around
in same manner fighting for the things which may not
even last for a small period of time.... When I think more
an more it feels that they all are in search of happiness
without even knowing the definition of happiness.
I read somewhere the true happiness lies within self...
But the toughest place to search on earth for some thing
is within self isn't it.... We know most of things about all
the friends or enemies around but its tough for us to
find what we wish or what we want from our own life.....

How depressing it start getting write more on some other
day...

Trying to stop the time

2008-03-29T15:35:00.001+05:30

I just don't understand how God would let us meet if there is no way for us to be together.

I would rather have had one breath of his hair ,one kiss from his mouth, one touch of his hand than eternity without it.

True love last forever......

First Job

2008-02-29T18:21:00.000+05:30

So now think in a habit of writing blogs good na.......

Anyways First job good or what to say a great experience actually its the second offer I got but in the first one it was more like I was the only one to get placed from the group but this time its fun as 4 of us got a placement together and that too in a good firm it was great that screams of happiness that hugging together that shouting together that sound of clapping which make it almost impossible to hear anything else just a fabulous environment........Cheers all around it was like all have got whatever they ever wished in life and ya its true also as when one enters in engineering life he or she has only one dream to get placed and to be something and when that dream come true what else one can desire.............

So better to start from the start of the scenario

As I told I have one more offer so honestly I was not preparing much
seriously for this company but my batch mates have a desire or I say
burning desire for this company as some still are unplaced and some want to
make it in the biggest Indian IT firm and some topper type want it in
all and ya one more type for some it was a dream organization so it was
like whole world was preparing for this day except me and finally the
day comes first we have to give a written test containing aptitude and
English in apti I am kind of okey which I can make on my own but in
english I am a little or say too much frail as you can get from this blog
[;)] only after clearing this test people got a chance to be in
interview and written is the elimination round and ya before this we also have
a presentation on company in which they tell you all good things about
company that why one should join that company and trust me after
listening to that presentation I was thinking that it would be better if I
was prepare for the day it was like I missed an opportunity as I said I
was the least prepare guy I think in that crowd........

But time comes of written test all was thinking that if by luck get a
chance to sit at a place from where a lil cheating is possible and
luckily 3 of us got that chance from where english starts seeming too easy
as I was the one just sitting at that place and other have to follow me
so all the responsibility to do all the cheating and I am a lil good in
that work...[;-)] and luckily and i mention this word again luckily
everything goes well due to that one person and I want to thank him/her
(keep thinking and send what you think in comments) again in here as
he/she is the only one due to which I am writing this blog. And in result
we 3 make it through [:)] and the 4th one whom I mention make it on his
own may be with the help of beginners luck as it was his 1st company
but what matter most is he also make it.

And now the next phase starts and one from us was in start of list
other was in middle somewhere and two of us was just in the last of that
list trust me that time in which the names of the ones who make it in 1st
round announced is also not easy those 5 or 10 min of wait and each
moment one name going through your ears is also not easy everyone listens
like all his life depends on that list and when one listens name its
like the biggest burden removes I know still the final step is far but
still in this war every battle is crucial as you need to crack to be
move ahead on ladder.

As all 3 of us was in the list though I was in the end [:(]. Next round
starts interviews starts.........
That phase is also so different heart beats with each name that called
for interview and just asking about each and every ques asked from the
one who is done with the interview and thinking about answers and
asking to each one around that what would be more suitable for such kind of
question and what will not and that sharing of thoughts trust me at
that time mind starts working with double of its power grasping each point
said around and you feel friendly to each one around even if you never
talked to him/her........Just great moments tough to imagine are
really worth feeling............And after long wait of 4 hours the time for
my interview comes and again the one who helps me in and all of us in
written (that he/she) was called with me even in interview but with a
different panel. Again moments of anxiety waiting of 10 min in front of
interview room is like what I say cant convert those feelings in words
but still try.... It was like one mind constantly in praying that all go
well and one thinking how have to react and how face all questions and
one analyzing the penal which going to take interview.........all
beats of heart starts sounding like blast in ears its like you can listen
each and every beat of heart..........

And the process begin not mentioning much about that here but it was
cool I was really comfortable as the one taking interview was good and It
was nice to having conversation with him.

And after this phase that wait for result with praying hands all around
people coming and leaving minutes passing like hours those fake
predictions about total selected number and after listening each one thinking
that Oh God Please I be in those final numbers..........And when the
time of announcement came and that steady and silent staring of eyes
towards the list with prayers all around and expectation rising with each
announced name and falling when first letter not matched to
yours.......Exciting..... more then any adventure ride you ever take sensational
really.....great if your name is in the list and if not all seems to go
in vain and like no color left for you in world like all musics lost
their charm.........

But If your name is in list then you are the happiest person on
earth..........And as all 4 of us make it so sure we are happy very happy to
an extent can't bind in words........[:-)]

So time to bind up this thing with again a great thanks to that
angel......I pray I ll get a chance to pay you back what I owe to you in some
part of life......Thanks......

Something from within me....

2008-02-27T15:47:00.000+05:30

Sometimes life takes you on a path where its tough to hold on and hard to let go. In that case what will be best for one to do coz it seems that what gives happiness to him ll not be same for others. Is it good to be selfish and think about only of own or just let go the path of happiness which takes you to your own happiness.

Don't know and have no clue how much time ll it take me to realize on what way life going to take me. At present moment only suitable solution which i find is to let the things happen to be their own and better wait and watch.

But just as I try to believe on previously said another thought stuck in my head that don't I be filled for rest of my whole life with a feel of guilt that I don't try and may be things changed if I give them a try. And again I reach to the point from where it all began on the starting thought "hold on or let go"........Pray for a divine light to fill my soul and guide on my path good or bad whatever but cant took the load of guilt that is growing with each passing day..........

Is it really that tough to find solution sometimes or is it happening only to me don't know. Is I am that much weak that don't even guide my own life or its something else.

Don't know and have no clue ll I ever be able to find answer to this.

Love....

2008-02-27T14:04:00.000+05:30

When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness.
It erupts like an earthquake then it subsides. And
when it subsides you have to make a decision; you
have to work out whether your roots have become
so entwined together that it is inconceivable that
you two should ever part, because this is what love
is. Love is not breathlessness; it is not excitement,it
is not the desire to mate every second of the day,
it's not laying awake at night imagining to be together.
No, that is just being in love, which any of us can
convince ourselves we are. Love, itself, is what is left over when being in
love has burned away. Doesn't sound very exciting does it?

But, it is. ---Captain Corelli's Mandolin
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i live in d memory of my love
who lives in d ocean of my heart
just like a butterfly flyin in d sky
she took my heart away
and made me so shy..........

that today when i think of him
she comes to my mind
as my everythin
as an important part of my life
she is nowhere but just in my imagination
that keeps me alive all this while.......

Thoughts often make me thought...

2008-02-27T13:46:00.000+05:30

It is said that soul is endless it can not be destroyed it was there yesterday it is here today and it will last for tomorrow and forever. Its our ignorance that don't let us understand its value.

But how can one understands the value of a life in which you can't feel the touch of mother's hand on your head, can't feel the wind blowing against your face nor smell the smell of soil dipped in first rain of season, can't taste the food as it is when you are hungry at most.

I don't know who wants to understand the meaning of such life.
I prefer being ignorant......
Don't U

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THERE IS A SAYING:
We say we love flowers, yet we pluck them.
We say we love trees, yet we cut them down.
And some people still wonder why some are afraid
when they are told they are loved.

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SACRED SPACE:
The person in material consciousness is convinced by a false ego that he is the doer of everything..he does not know the mechanism of the body is produced by material nature which works under the supervision of the supreme lord..he takes the credit for doing everything independently and tht is the symptom of his nescience..he is factually bewildered by the false ego.. which makes him forget his eternal relationship wit the lord!!!

beautiful thoughts

2008-02-27T13:40:00.000+05:30

"Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family. Be true to yourself. Don't commit when you are not ready. Don't keep others waiting needlessly.It is true that life does not get easier with age. It only gets more challenging. Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love. Pursue your passions. Live your dreams. Don't grow old. Just grow YOU"

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I feared being alone until I learned to like myself.

I feared failure until I realized that I only fail when I don't try.

I feared success until I realized that I had to try in order to be happy
with myself.

I feared people's opinions until I learned that people would have opinions
about me anyway.

I feared rejection until I learned to have faith in myself.

I feared pain until I learned that it's necessary for growth.

I feared the truth until I saw the ugliness in lies.

I feared life until I experienced its beauty.

I feared death until I realized that it's not an end,
but a beginning.[Thought I don't agree]

I feared my destiny, until I realized that
I had the power to change my life.

I feared hate until I saw that it
was nothing more than ignorance.

I feared love until it touched my heart,
making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.

I feared ridicule until I learned how
to laugh at myself.

I feared growing old until I realized that
I gained wisdom every day.

I feared the future until I realized that
life just kept getting better.

I feared the past until I realized that
it could no longer hurt me.

I feared the dark until I saw the beauty
of the starlight.

I feared the light until I learned that the
truth would give me strength.

I feared change, until I saw that
even the most beautiful butterfly
had to undergo a metamorphosis
before it could fly.